Sunday, May 4, 2008

family....sweet...pain and bitter.....my dear parent

A picture i took with my loving dad and also a picture i took on mother's day with my wonderful mother..with love






I have seen quite a lot ....not from only the society...but from my family background where i came from...big family, today I'm going to first share about my parent's...how they both work so hard to brought all of us up....
My father is a bus driver during those day's and my mom work as a rubber tapper for a while ...as i remember. I was around 7-8 years of age, I still remember every day i will be waiting anxiously for my dad to reach home because i can dig his pocket on his blouse for coins!he will always keep some coins for us to take purposely...he love all of us very much..yes very much...i can feel from my heart...now when i recall back i think my father might have sacrifice his lunch for a cheap one in order to save some coins in his pocket....just to make us happy so we can buy sweet or...in school, cos my mom always give very little to us as our family during those days really hard life for them both to raised 9 kids!....CAN you imagine ...i don't know why....my tears keep coming out from my eye now....will continue...
ya...I'm back....ok..i still remember once when my mom keep 1 durian's for my father, when he eat the durian's he asked me to eat too ..i told my dad ..no i don't want.actually i love to eat the durian so much but i know it wont be enough...if i eat cos the durian not so big one...i take the durian flesh to my dad...he was so happy , for the first time i feel my dad hand pat on my head lightly...good girl..i felt embarrassed because my dad have to work all the time hardly have any time to really communicate with all his children,.....that is why when he said that to me...i can remember till today, i was just a 7 years old girl.

Another incident i will never forget....is regarding my third sister, this happen when i was 9 year old.....when...one day as i can remember, my third sister want to stop her study ..she return her buku pinjaman to school and came back to tell my mom that she want to stop schooling ! BAAAMMM my mother hot temper gets to her head! shout and very angry chased my sister outside the house..as a punishment ..my mom asked my sister to sleep out side that night...my mom GET very very angry, even my dad cant stop her anger. In the night my father can not sleep...he wake up tried to open the door but my mom is more very alert...warning nobody is to open the door! oh mine!.....my father cant sleep in peace that night, he wake me up asked me to passed a pillow or blanket..i cant remember? to my sister ...
Now thinking about this incident that take place in my family many years ago...my mom intention is for my sister future concerned, she knows the important of education for our future because during her childhood she is not given the opportunity to study just because she is a girl....so she hope we can have a good education.Though mother did that to 3rd sister...but i know deep down her heart mom felt more pain than anyone.I will never forget this ........my mother love every of her children in her unique ways........................@..&...*!#

she took up hard jobs like a helper for women whom after just gave birth...like washing clothes and cook for them at their house, selling mee siam and other stuff in the morning by carrying the both pot full of mee siam ext..with a long solid stick made of wood, i don't know what to call it in English...on her shoulder ...walk so far out from the village one house after another...i was small then..will just follow by her side ...shouting out loud together with my mom..mee siam! porridge!a lot of girl in the village love to eat my mother mee siam but later mom stop selling i cant remember why as i was very small...She is a strong woman in character ...and a wonderful mom..Because life is hard those days but for she love us so much...she rare chicken, duck..plant veges...so that we can enjoy nice food too on the table , that's why i know my mom love us in her unique way..though she is not the type that spoken out her feelings..though we are not rich in $$ but we are rich in our way..why?...the food that my mom prepared for us everyday..what we call organic! food..real organic from chicken, home plant vege and the vege i love my mom fried is tapioca leaf, potatoe leaf and home plan long bean...all taste so good and sweet!

My mom and dad already not around..they have their peaceful place in heaven with God now...
Mother's day.....if only there is a chance for me to say something to my dad and mom...if they can hear
...".I love you .!!! and I miss both of you so much''.
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