Today Is Mother'S Day......"being a mother but her home is in an old folk's home !"

Today is mother's day ... a day where all mother should be given the best reward of compliments AND APPRECIATION for their hardship and love they have devoted for their children as a mother and most of all.. to be grateful in all aspect from the day when one in their mother's womb to the day we are born and till who we are today... .countless effort...countless love...and time..
< http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/5/10/nation/21206079&sec=nation URL add ...Madam Pang in the Star news.

FAR AND DEEP IS THE
OCEAN, THE LOVE OF A
MOTHER WHO IS CALLING OUT HER DEAR DAUGHTER NAME... FROM HER HEART... R...."COME BACK I WANT TO SEE YOU'' - FAR IS HER DAUGHTER..DEEP AS THE OCEAN, IS HER LOVE FOR HER !

What makes me felt sad today is not because mother is not around with us ..cos I know MY MOM is at... a better and peaceful place with God..through the grace of God, but is someone i know, a lady i know for a long long time... ..... ago!

she is a mother...to who?.....her daughter, daughter that she deeply loved so much which is not in Malaysia but in overseas...US...her daughter leave her mom just because of an argument as i know from her....from that day her daughter did not contact her anymore...life still have to carry on for Madam Pang though she miss her daughter so much everyday of her life, till she finally finish all her savings....and she have to stayed in an old folk home in the end....what make me sad is..when the reporter from STAR Malaysia went to interview her few days ago at the old folk home ...her biggest wish and only wish, is to have a chance to see her daughter Rosalind !.. her picture and wish publish in the STAR Malaysia page 23 on Saturday 10th, May, 2008 !understand that i shouldn't review the daughter actual name on the blog as i know she want to protect her daughter ...but I pray ...and hope that my blog can do a miracle wish for Madam Pang......if you happen to read my blog...or happen to spot this page, dear! ...''YOUR MOTHER MISS YOU A LOT FROM THE DAY YOU LEAVE UNTIL TODAY ...10 YEARS!'' Hope every mother is happy today cos no matter what or how....you have done a great job! for willing to be a mother....Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers! & hope that prayer will able to answer for this long waited ..wish... of Madam Pang to come true....

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DESTINY...............

Many years ago .....i don't , I believe destiny is in our own hand. But today, i believe one have a choice...but one cant eaccaped one destiny.
Do you believe in destiny? Some people don't but i start to believe, that day i will be able to grab a good opportunity just right the corner, if only I go further but i have a choice not to go further to search...then i will have to face the consequences for my decision.You know what i mean?

I tried went against my destiny and i have paid a high price for my actions as well ..HE have destined everything for me even when I'm in my mother womb . A lot of things in our life are beyond our predictions. Now I live my life with the Grace HE gave me ...and i try to be obedience not by my might but HIS Grace that HE gave me ...cos there is no point to argue with the ONE that is so much GREATER. If God take something away from our life, we cant argue with HIM, there is a purpose for everything to take place . Everything we see are not permanent, even our own life...when we die .....whatever possessions we have we cant bring a long with us not even our memories. For me the best gift is enjoy the good food from the labour of our hard work and if God bless us someone we love and be love ..this is the best give!..among all. God had made us simple, but we are the one most of the time make it complicated always.

Another example...my dear 3rd sister, she did not finish her secondary school during those days but destiny have change her life, she met my brother in law ....a man that love her with all his heart...married...and encouraged her to complete her study.... she completed her study ..get good results! in California! I'm so proud of her....! and glad for her ...the most wonderful gift of all is she have done her best! Thanks God....have a wonderful family right now with 2 beautiful kids staying in California.

Some people have so much they earn and earn...but something happen and sweep all they have earn! and back to nothing....what do you think ...destiny? In their destiny they are not destined to have , again as i have said..we have a choice...but if it is not destined for you to own certain thing...somehow ...somewhere ..we lost it all and back to square one.....if is destined is yours..will be yours.. whatever it may be.

Pray for the best in all areas ..if you are sad today..remember this too shall past...then at least we will appreciate happiness more when we have it.....wish you have a nice day ...with love.

I went to market just ...going to cook something special for my husband tonight..My mother recipe!

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Well,.....finish cooking. Here it is........? I bet you my husband will be very happy when he see this for his dinner.I put a lot effort to prepared this dinner you know.....<<

Original mother recipe!.....really enough taste, smell good...is true..NO bedek mnnnn!NO self praise , it have been test...and praise by my family members.. again don't judge a book by it;s cover, i;m not a good decorator but I;m a good cook! ha ha ha no maid around and I'm THE EXPENSIVE ONE here prepared for dinner. .. just to add a little meaning to my husband

stomach when he come back....you think I'm a good wife? NO ! I'm just a wonderful lady!hehehe!

This vege i dont know what to call in English ...very good for our skin! fried with eggs and guest what is next....? Mother ...mun chu kiok....ah!

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Had a bad migrain attack...better now, going to a nice breakfast for myself to begin the journey of my day!

While ...this morning when i woke up from my sleep i had a bad migraine...maybe cos by the stress I'm facing lately ...as I'm the Treasury for the committee of zone1-1 which recently been elected by the residents here where I'm staying ..a meeting right on this Saturday ..discuss about major issue !ROOF DEFECTS!Before the next meeting start..already few of neighbours looking for me to discussed about the roof problem, i think ...the devil.oper is going to get IT! this time on this coming Saturday Meeting at the management office discussion issue serious roof defects that have been ignore by the developer..for all this year , now the body committee form they throw the whole problem to the committee leader's...cunning indeed.

Developer IRresponsible ATTITUDE! lucky our Malaysia government impose a new law..every condominium or apartments have to have joint body...meaning the committee have the authority to decide where to use or utilise the maintenance fees and now we have taken over to take charge of our own pool of money from maintenance fees collected...so see what can our new selected Chairman and myself can do to improve our community here ....for all the people who reside in zone 1-1!

****************************** Time For Pampering A Little****************************

come...NOODLE SOUP from Wennie! You will fall in love with the noodle soUP...so nICE! Never judge a book by it's cover....you will know how gooD! the soup tasTE! only if you are here to join me!.... Uhmm..the taste truly add some meaning to begin the journey of my day!.as i said "secret recipe from Wennie" Even my fussy- Zoe girl cant stand the temptation! OK......"come join me Zoe'...using organic noodle and organic Verge with fish ball! For the soup ingredients ?...if friend you want my recipe ...just let me know.

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i'm drinking tumeric juice! ....contains a lot of goodness!

TUMERIC JUICE!
I HAVE BEEN DRINKING THIS JUICE FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS! I FEEL GOOD...HOPE YOU TOO BENEFIT FROM IT..WITH LOVE

The Herbs Section Time to drink my turmeric juice!...rich in goodness! After my menstrual i always drink this, helps to clean my woman organ!..and many more benefits!... My little Zoe girl...want to sit om my lap...when I'm blogging here...oh mine...! OK sit on my lap.

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family....sweet...pain and bitter.....my dear parent

A picture i took with my loving dad and also a picture i took on mother's day with my wonderful mother..with love

I have seen quite a lot ....not from only the society...but from my family background where i came from...big family, today I'm going to first share about my parent's...how they both work so hard to brought all of us up....
My father is a bus driver during those day's and my mom work as a rubber tapper for a while ...as i remember. I was around 7-8 years of age, I still remember every day i will be waiting anxiously for my dad to reach home because i can dig his pocket on his blouse for coins!he will always keep some coins for us to take purposely...he love all of us very much..yes very much...i can feel from my heart...now when i recall back i think my father might have sacrifice his lunch for a cheap one in order to save some coins in his pocket....just to make us happy so we can buy sweet or...in school, cos my mom always give very little to us as our family during those days really hard life for them both to raised 9 kids!....CAN you imagine ...i don't know why....my tears keep coming out from my eye now....will continue...
ya...I'm back....ok..i still remember once when my mom keep 1 durian's for my father, when he eat the durian's he asked me to eat too ..i told my dad ..no i don't want.actually i love to eat the durian so much but i know it wont be enough...if i eat cos the durian not so big one...i take the durian flesh to my dad...he was so happy , for the first time i feel my dad hand pat on my head lightly...good girl..i felt embarrassed because my dad have to work all the time hardly have any time to really communicate with all his children,.....that is why when he said that to me...i can remember till today, i was just a 7 years old girl.

Another incident i will never forget....is regarding my third sister, this happen when i was 9 year old.....when...one day as i can remember, my third sister want to stop her study ..she return her buku pinjaman to school and came back to tell my mom that she want to stop schooling ! BAAAMMM my mother hot temper gets to her head! shout and very angry chased my sister outside the house..as a punishment ..my mom asked my sister to sleep out side that night...my mom GET very very angry, even my dad cant stop her anger. In the night my father can not sleep...he wake up tried to open the door but my mom is more very alert...warning nobody is to open the door! oh mine!.....my father cant sleep in peace that night, he wake me up asked me to passed a pillow or blanket..i cant remember? to my sister ...
Now thinking about this incident that take place in my family many years ago...my mom intention is for my sister future concerned, she knows the important of education for our future because during her childhood she is not given the opportunity to study just because she is a girl....so she hope we can have a good education.Though mother did that to 3rd sister...but i know deep down her heart mom felt more pain than anyone.I will never forget this ........my mother love every of her children in her unique ways........................@..&...*!#

she took up hard jobs like a helper for women whom after just gave birth...like washing clothes and cook for them at their house, selling mee siam and other stuff in the morning by carrying the both pot full of mee siam ext..with a long solid stick made of wood, i don't know what to call it in English...on her shoulder ...walk so far out from the village one house after another...i was small then..will just follow by her side ...shouting out loud together with my mom..mee siam! porridge!a lot of girl in the village love to eat my mother mee siam but later mom stop selling i cant remember why as i was very small...She is a strong woman in character ...and a wonderful mom..Because life is hard those days but for she love us so much...she rare chicken, duck..plant veges...so that we can enjoy nice food too on the table , that's why i know my mom love us in her unique way..though she is not the type that spoken out her feelings..though we are not rich in $$ but we are rich in our way..why?...the food that my mom prepared for us everyday..what we call organic! food..real organic from chicken, home plant vege and the vege i love my mom fried is tapioca leaf, potatoe leaf and home plan long bean...all taste so good and sweet!

My mom and dad already not around..they have their peaceful place in heaven with God now...
Mother's day.....if only there is a chance for me to say something to my dad and mom...if they can hear ...".I love you .!!! and I miss both of you so much''.

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Embrace life to the fullest !

Life is indeed precious in all aspects...from the moment we are born to this world till we return.Live each moment as it comes and live each day as if it were your last, life itself is UNpredictable, for we will never know when this borrowed life will be taken away by the giver of life...GOD who is life Himself.

Every morning to me is a gift from GOD, especially when i know that I'm still breathing normal..can walk to the window to take a big fresh air....inhale and exhale! is all in our own mind to appreciate all things around. My little puppy Zoe will greet me ...how sweet..i really thanks God for all the nice things around, if at times when i felt unhappy...calm my inner soul for a while.......i will asked for HIS strength in prayer or probably i will make myself a good breakfast that makes me happy eating to begin the journey of my day. See is all in our mind...Life is a gift from God, we all need to enjoy it as whole, we have to learn to accept the pain while enjoying the happiness. We can't really understand what is joy like without feeling what is pain, it is why hard times are the only way that make us appreciate our life..every moment, every minutes..

Cameron Highland ...during chinese New Year...I give thanks to God, for the beautiful scenery that i truly enjoy...so peaceful and soothing fresh AIR..captured this moment in a video clip..that is all i can do...for every moment is so precious to me.

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