Farewell my beloved .....

tooth, it is with me for so many many years, help me to chew and enjoy so many wonderful tasty food and i truly felt pain to depart with her. I have to responsible for what happening to her ..i went to the wrong dentist...this dentist is my friend, she hep her doctor for many years in a dental clinic...so i thought she is reliable. What happen is she fill up this tooth for me many months back but did not really fill up completely clean a little inside , so as time goes by ...the bacteria spread deep down into it. Recently, when i felt a sharp sensation whenever i ate my food on the left side ..this tooth really hurts!! so i make a trip to a real professional this time...he immediately told me that this tooth of mine need to pull out!..hesitated..just leave the place to seek for a 2ND opinion...the 2ND one took a x-ray for me. Finally...i need to depart my beloved tooth that is with me for so many many years...mnnnnn..next the 2ND doctor recommended me to a fix crown ..which is a much better option then fixing a false teeth on it, right? so crowning will be like real tooth, is fix and need not take it out ..anyway is fix permanently, the charges for crowning very expensive. I have no choice but to take it, cos i really don't like false teeth!!! luckily is inside on the left side of my lower jaw, big tooth indeed huh??? took the doctor so long to extracted it, maybe my tooth doesn't want to depart from me too,...i really clean it nicely but maybe the filling is too long been done since i'm in my primary school, and next when i refill many months back..the dentist my friend have no licence one.ahhhhhhh....

Finally....

see issit nice? huhuhu..

Mr.Obama Said Time For A Change, So Is My Hairdresser?

Have been with my ex-hairdresser for many years before this new one, recently a friend of mine have her hair cut and perm by this lady boss -so fantastic!and her charges also fantastic! not high but reasonable, so i dont mind to give myself a change 2 months ago, like it, better than my previous hair cut to be honest, sometimes in life we need to make changes too. Now I'm coming to her again, for a hair cut since we will be going for a holiday soon, have a new hair cut for coming holiday trip!look better and neat.

Sleep On Comfortable Thigh Of Mine?

Another comfortable space for my little Zoe girl, she slept so sweet and sound on my thigh stretch my leg straight so she will have more space to straighten her body ..she love it. Cant bear to wake her up though i felt tired the pressured on my thigh, she moves a little and shiver a little '' dreaming i think" in her sleep- little wonderland?

Nutri for my face

Time to pamper my face before going to bed, my hubby snap this picture for me to blog...so nice of him to also make for me tumeric juice tonight.."thanks hubby".

Most important to me to pamper myself is to be greatful for HIS ( God) creation on me..reading the Holy Bible is so nourishing to my soul, a mask is just for external only.

Sleep so well last night

After 2 day's of bad insomnia finally i have goood sleep last night..woke up this morning feeling so Freshhh! have a home made breakfast, as usual i prefer to have home made- unless no choice too busy then ...Thanks God that i finally have a good rest for 10 hours of sleep!

Insomia

Last night i have insomnia problem again sleep around 2 hours only, but this time is different i did the most careless thing i ever thought can happen to me! i leave my house key at the letter box! when i open to check if any letter for me or not, took out the letter and just walk off- my whole bunch of house key still intact at the letter box! i cant believed this can happen to me...until now.Maybe you will say..huah! this woman so careless one ah? I tell you ..i got a shock myself of my carelessness's, not enough sleep can caused so many problem. when I came back my house key is inside my letter box!- thanks to that person who put it inside for me, i rush to my house to check anything lost or not, everything is ok....truly thanks God.

DESTINY...............

Many years ago .....i don't , I believe destiny is in our own hand. But today, i believe one have a choice...but one cant eaccaped one destiny.
Do you believe in destiny? Some people don't but i start to believe, that day i will be able to grab a good opportunity just right the corner, if only I go further but i have a choice not to go further to search...then i will have to face the consequences for my decision.You know what i mean?

I tried went against my destiny and i have paid a high price for my actions as well ..HE have destined everything for me even when I'm in my mother womb . A lot of things in our life are beyond our predictions. Now I live my life with the Grace HE gave me ...and i try to be obedience not by my might but HIS Grace that HE gave me ...cos there is no point to argue with the ONE that is so much GREATER. If God take something away from our life, we cant argue with HIM, there is a purpose for everything to take place . Everything we see are not permanent, even our own life...when we die .....whatever possessions we have we cant bring a long with us not even our memories. For me the best gift is enjoy the good food from the labour of our hard work and if God bless us someone we love and be love ..this is the best give!..among all. God had made us simple, but we are the one most of the time make it complicated always.

Another example...my dear 3rd sister, she did not finish her secondary school during those days but destiny have change her life, she met my brother in law ....a man that love her with all his heart...married...and encouraged her to complete her study.... she completed her study ..get good results! in California! I'm so proud of her....! and glad for her ...the most wonderful gift of all is she have done her best! Thanks God....have a wonderful family right now with 2 beautiful kids staying in California.

Some people have so much they earn and earn...but something happen and sweep all they have earn! and back to nothing....what do you think ...destiny? In their destiny they are not destined to have , again as i have said..we have a choice...but if it is not destined for you to own certain thing...somehow ...somewhere ..we lost it all and back to square one.....if is destined is yours..will be yours.. whatever it may be.

Pray for the best in all areas ..if you are sad today..remember this too shall past...then at least we will appreciate happiness more when we have it.....wish you have a nice day ...with love.

family....sweet...pain and bitter.....my dear parent

A picture i took with my loving dad and also a picture i took on mother's day with my wonderful mother..with love

I have seen quite a lot ....not from only the society...but from my family background where i came from...big family, today I'm going to first share about my parent's...how they both work so hard to brought all of us up....
My father is a bus driver during those day's and my mom work as a rubber tapper for a while ...as i remember. I was around 7-8 years of age, I still remember every day i will be waiting anxiously for my dad to reach home because i can dig his pocket on his blouse for coins!he will always keep some coins for us to take purposely...he love all of us very much..yes very much...i can feel from my heart...now when i recall back i think my father might have sacrifice his lunch for a cheap one in order to save some coins in his pocket....just to make us happy so we can buy sweet or...in school, cos my mom always give very little to us as our family during those days really hard life for them both to raised 9 kids!....CAN you imagine ...i don't know why....my tears keep coming out from my eye now....will continue...
ya...I'm back....ok..i still remember once when my mom keep 1 durian's for my father, when he eat the durian's he asked me to eat too ..i told my dad ..no i don't want.actually i love to eat the durian so much but i know it wont be enough...if i eat cos the durian not so big one...i take the durian flesh to my dad...he was so happy , for the first time i feel my dad hand pat on my head lightly...good girl..i felt embarrassed because my dad have to work all the time hardly have any time to really communicate with all his children,.....that is why when he said that to me...i can remember till today, i was just a 7 years old girl.

Another incident i will never forget....is regarding my third sister, this happen when i was 9 year old.....when...one day as i can remember, my third sister want to stop her study ..she return her buku pinjaman to school and came back to tell my mom that she want to stop schooling ! BAAAMMM my mother hot temper gets to her head! shout and very angry chased my sister outside the house..as a punishment ..my mom asked my sister to sleep out side that night...my mom GET very very angry, even my dad cant stop her anger. In the night my father can not sleep...he wake up tried to open the door but my mom is more very alert...warning nobody is to open the door! oh mine!.....my father cant sleep in peace that night, he wake me up asked me to passed a pillow or blanket..i cant remember? to my sister ...
Now thinking about this incident that take place in my family many years ago...my mom intention is for my sister future concerned, she knows the important of education for our future because during her childhood she is not given the opportunity to study just because she is a girl....so she hope we can have a good education.Though mother did that to 3rd sister...but i know deep down her heart mom felt more pain than anyone.I will never forget this ........my mother love every of her children in her unique ways........................@..&...*!#

she took up hard jobs like a helper for women whom after just gave birth...like washing clothes and cook for them at their house, selling mee siam and other stuff in the morning by carrying the both pot full of mee siam ext..with a long solid stick made of wood, i don't know what to call it in English...on her shoulder ...walk so far out from the village one house after another...i was small then..will just follow by her side ...shouting out loud together with my mom..mee siam! porridge!a lot of girl in the village love to eat my mother mee siam but later mom stop selling i cant remember why as i was very small...She is a strong woman in character ...and a wonderful mom..Because life is hard those days but for she love us so much...she rare chicken, duck..plant veges...so that we can enjoy nice food too on the table , that's why i know my mom love us in her unique way..though she is not the type that spoken out her feelings..though we are not rich in $$ but we are rich in our way..why?...the food that my mom prepared for us everyday..what we call organic! food..real organic from chicken, home plant vege and the vege i love my mom fried is tapioca leaf, potatoe leaf and home plan long bean...all taste so good and sweet!

My mom and dad already not around..they have their peaceful place in heaven with God now...
Mother's day.....if only there is a chance for me to say something to my dad and mom...if they can hear ...".I love you .!!! and I miss both of you so much''.

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